I need a fucking vacation.
I want to go home.
The thing that attracted me the most to him was his music taste . We both loved Iron Maiden .
Then he was funny, smart, caring .
I will never forget the nights I spent with him tumbling around ; young as I was , careless even .
Then again , young , I fucked it up .
Eh , we all make mistakes and have to live from it .
This is maybe just one I wish I didn't make .
Then again I won't & refuse to beg for attention .
If it's like that then , it is what it is .
I just wish he didn't live so vividly .
Can you really live without me so easily ?
Was it that simple to forget ?
Then I think , is this what love is ?
I don't know , I've never been in love .
Call it what you will , but that wasn't love .
Love doesn't run .
There I go with that saying .
No , love doesn't run .
But what if love is scared ?
It would take time yes , but then what ?
What happens then ?
What if something happens before that time is up and it's gone ?
What if love finds it's other half before anything ?
Then you become happy for love & wish them nothing but the best in life .
- Rant over -
I've spent the most wonderful time with my family for Thanksgiving .I ate more than I'd like , but I'm dealing with it .
I ended up going to NYC , Jersey , & Philly .
NYC is amazing !
'Which way to take pictures of the big blue laaaddd-dddyyyy ?' <- ROFL
Me being from such a small town , oh wow haha .
I just got done with my school work for the day , I think I've been doing pretty good .
He's not on my mind , I've been keeping it shut tight .
I have a promise to keep , so that's that .
I can do better any ways (;
Talking to one really special guy .
Not getting my hopes up , but I'm cheering for this one (:
Until next time ; <3
|My mother is here . And my sister . And my brother ! Words cannot explain how amazingly happy I am (: I missed my family so much and they're here until after Thanksgiving <3|
I take back everything I ever said about him .
Tired of being cheated and lied to .
My weight is like 155 , so haven't really been going any where with that .
I'm hoping I'll be able to go into my zombie mode & just not feel or do anything .
I'll be stick thin by Valentine's Day .
I started college today ; yay ....
I just wish I knew what the future held ...